Acceptable Sacrifice

May 10, 2007

And I’ve poured myself out a million times

all my words, all my thoughts, all my dreams

and I’ve stripped my heart bare of all power and dignity

to find nothing is as it seems

And I’ve been left alone with nothing at all

but the silence, scar tissue and sobs

and I’ve reached for his hand but he never saw

and I feel as if I have been robbed

I’m brittle and bleeding and dead but alive

I’m scraping and reaching and hearing the cries

of the people still living within these black walls

their eyes peering through as I walk down the halls

We’re desperate for difference, we settle for peace

as we pursue happiness, sorrows increase

we stretch for each other and unity’s bond

lock fingers together to make us feel strong

Futility this life has offered to us

depleted and empty and void of all trust

I’ve scratched at my surface and yanked out the roots

of the lies in my heart, and the too painful truths

And I’ve lived far too long in nonsensical pain

I look in Your eyes now and lose everything

And I’m not who I was and I’ve fallen apart

and I’m grateful to hand You my soft, broken heart