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June 13, 2007

Stretched out across this cold, hard floor

my thoughts are too deep to ignore

I fight the urge to numb my brain

I close my eyes and feel the pain

I wonder where you are tonight

with someone else? And what’s she like?

Do you share the things you shared with me?

In love so deeply you can’t sleep?

Or are you all alone and scared?

Scared there’s no one for you out there?

Gripping your pillow, screaming tears

given to empty, hopeless fear?

Are you like me, and missing “us”?

Wishing there could have been more trust?

Wanting to hold me one last time

find in me what you’ll never find?

Tonight I miss your fingertips

I miss your heart, I miss your lips

my spirit is too heavy now

for me to breathe, and yet somehow

a silent cry, I find a way

to clear my mind and start to pray

We were made for more than all this

feeble minded emptiness

step into who you are and know

our Father never let us go

I fight for me, I fight for you

I cry for you to find the truth

…and though my heart’s no longer yours

I love you purer, deeper, harder, stronger than I ever could before