Despair

August 12, 2008

I bite my lip and try hard to cry

the feeling of anguish just passing the time

I willingly opened my heart up and gave

now I’m dying slowly, my spirit enslaved

There are moments of bliss when You touch who I am

then when I plummet, my strength worn so thin

this one image constantly filling my head

Satan’s claws deep inside, tearing me to shreds

Laughing to himself as I bleed on his hands

as I writhe and I mutter, “I don’t understand…”

I’m asking these questions for which there’s no answer

the breath of despair’s spreading through me like cancer

I got myself here and I can’t get out now

I’m not sure just why, I’m not even sure how

and I see Your light shining just beyond reach

there’s so much I could learn, even more You could teach

But instead I lie down, keep my screaming inside

grow number, and number, and finally die